My gloomy birthday

2nd June 2012. Today is my birthday. 25 Years ago,2nd June 1987 i was born to this world. Born from a great mom, and a great dad, i have such great family. We were not rich, we were not poor, we are just an average family, with pretty happy life. I have two brothers,an older and a young brother. both are male while i am the only girl. I am feelin' blessed to have my family because they are my everything. I am really nothing without them. I am happy today that Allah still give me chance to breathe and live in this world. But i am also feelin' so gloomy and sad. I am an shy girl,introvert,disbelief to people (esp.man) and hard to fit in social live. That's why i dont have many friends. I can counting my friends, they are really not much. What's sad is that even i thought they are my besties, they dont even remember my birthday. really dont remember. It's kinda sad because i never forget about their birthdays, really never forget. But what can i do? They are all having my facebook account, they are loggin' on everyday, make new status, and there are notification in there, and even online today. They said hello in the chat, but they are seriously forgot my birthday. Its so hurt. But i can do nothing. Whenever i try to make new friends, it's always ended same. I am stupid at keep in touch with people, and i am stupid at relationship maintenance. I never can get close with anybody. This time, i only have my parents. It's only them whom say happy birthday, it's only them whom wishing the best for me, it's only them who cheered me up. I want to change myself into a better and cheerful kid, but its really hard, because my past. I got hurt mentally when i was kid, i thought my friends were my besties, then they never thought about me, and ignored me whenever they were with their other friends, it's like i was invisible. Since then, even harder to me to trust people... I hate the fact that only my parents love me, that i have nobody unless them. I know i must run to Allah, because Allah is the only ONE that can give me miracle. I am keepin' my faith to Allah that i will get great friend who will love me and care to me endlessly. However, i am older now. I won't hoping for it again. I am just tired. So i am just accept the fact that I am, Forever alone. That a thing never change, I am forever alone.